My music (page)

I have nothing to write about my music. I combine the majority of the sounds solely in FL Studio, but bits and pieces I generate or record elsewhere. I always do a final mix in FL though. I don't really know how to use any other programs, but I am confident that if I tried I would eventually understand. I've used garage band before, but it was too gimmicky and finnicky for my liking. I have a loop mindset. With that being said, I make sounds.

I wrote my latest album after my cat died. He was a good cat who died of heartworm. The album isn't dedicated to him or anything, I just happened to compose it all after he died, which influenced the album. I don't really think of music in that sense though. I try not to think at all, I don't even really like putting my truest self into the work I care for the most because I am a bit nervous of other people's judgement.

Of course, I know this is a foolish mindest. We are all so close to death. And those who read that and judge my personality, or age, are just not yet aware of how quickly life goes by. People waste a lot of time, and a lot of people die with regret. I hope it is your goal, as it is mine, to rid myself of any regret before I die. It is a very sad thing to see somebody passing on their death bed grasping for air, saying "No, please! I don't want to go yet, I'm not ready!", but yet it is more often then not, reality. It happens every day, multiple times a day. It might even happen to you or me. As I get older, my mind tends to want to remind others not to waste the moment. Of course, these words reflect a line I walk between myself and reality, and I have no second thought when it comes to other's judgement when writing down my inner dialogue. As I get older, this mindset towards my dialogue writing is increasingly being applied to my music.

All of this is NOT to say that you should ever panic with me. Or even worry as much as me. Perhaps you have it figured out. For that I commend you. I only wish I could get closer to myself, but I believe with that mindset I will continue to grow.

But I realize I am closer than I think.

I remember that there is nothing truly to "grow" into. There is nothing to become that is greater or less than. More than likely, everything that "was" or "will be" already has been. I believe we are just discovering bits and pieces of the past as we think we are proceeding into the future. But that is just speculation. Almost hogwash. These concepts of past and future mean nothing when you realize that no matter how you look at it, manipulation of the present moment is THE ONLY METHOD of escaping any type of suffering. It's very simple. Just do anything else, and try to forget about whatever is bugging your mind. If unable to forget, then maybe it is time to delve into whatever is bugging your mind.

Yes, all of these words are a selfish projection of my contemplations. You would too if you were given an "outlet" for creativity! But drat. All of these words are also for mostly nothing. They might be read once, by one person, or at most by a few people. Then, depending on the you set canvas up for submitting assignments, these words will be moved to a computer's recycling bin to be emptied within 30 days. Or even better, these words might not even be held in a file to be transferred to your computer. It might just be embedded into the canvas website, to be viewed and never locally downloaded. What an invention canvas is. Canvas is honestly a marvel when you think about it in terms of educational media communications. Somebody, or a team of people definitely realized the monetary potential for remote education when COVID happened, and capitalized on it. Some have problems with the effect of this on the quality of education, but I would invite those people to realize that no matter what, if you don't want to learn it, you ain't gonna learn it. Alas, this is too many words. I feel that I've circle jerked my brain enough at this point. I've won all the gold medals in the mental olympics.

DJ RAVIOLI